a list of things i love.

I love:
the stars
the windfarm
infinity
the idea of LA.

the idea of getting out.
my new apartment.
the bigger lights.
intrigue
scandals (not to be confused with drama.)

going to shows.
booking shows.
photography.
dreaming.
goal making.
meeting intriguing people.
100% good vibes.
brilliant conversations.
birds' songs.

the bird and the bee.
IO Echo "Doorway"
The Orphanage.
lookbook.nu
Chicago.
my best friends.
Memories.
"Ohio"
God. (who is number 1.)
my opal ring from Grandma Marshall.
my pink ring from Thomas.
Tea parties.

Writing.

I wrote a letter today. I'm not sure what I'm hoping to get out of it. I'll let you know what happens after it gets sent.
I'm holding onto optimism
and really not looking forward to working tomorrow.

My head hurts. And my throat. I cannot be sick right now. I have too much to do, truly.

Love, Ana.

falling down.

I tripped and things are starting to get interesting.

I scraped my knee and my arm and my foot and my other arm and my other knee.
Now, my outside matches my insides.

(not on purpose.)


You are so full of pride. Why! You could lose so much pain and gain so much of what you've needed with one second of humility.

Don't you know? I can only stand to wait so long.
Don't you know? That's a lie. I haven't figured out how to move on.

I truly hope your happiness is not a front.
I wish you nothing but the best.

It's just I've never felt like this. Like I'm homeless, restless.



you will know what that means. you always knew.

I hide behind depth. I hide behind intellect and a pretty face with a shining smile..
I am just like you. Struggling.

Please let me see that.

Listening to: "I need you so much closer" by Death Cab for Cutie, "Miserable at Best" by Mayday Parade, "Konstantine" by Something Corporate, The Centralia Mine Fire (I can't help it, "Ohio" had been stuck in my head for months), and "Underwater" by Tegan and Sara.
I didn't mean for that list to be so depressing.

Ana.